It's been a very long time since we last met. I have been forcing myself not to message you. No messages, no calls, no FB chat, no MSN, no FB messages, no seeing you. After all this while I thought that I would be able to forget you or at least not to think about you, but I was wrong. No matter what, I will still think of you every single day.

I've moved on. I'm doing my job and I'm doing what I've always been doing, I started to go out with friends, I started to put full focus while editing. Basically I moved on in terms of my life and my job. But my life isn't the same anymore without you. Everything is just not right without you. May be I was just used to have you but isn't that what Love is all about? You love someone, you spend your life with her, and you start to get use to have her in your life but you still enjoys it, and getting use to have someone doesn't mean you don't love her.

I used to think that giving up something for a girl is a stupid thing. But I don't know why I am willing to give up anything in my life just to have you back in my arms and hear you calling me "Lou Gong Zai". I tried not to be so selfish but I couldn't. Seriously I am happy to see you happy with the guy but I still want to be the guy that makes you happy.

Everyday when I wake up in the morning I wanted to send you a message saying "Good Morning Dear." like what I used to do some times. But knowing that you're happy now with your new boyfriend stops me from doing that. And also I'm afraid that you will avoid me even more.

I once told my dad if God gave me the chance now I would marry you, or I should say I want to marry you and take you as my wife, not because I'm afraid of losing you or I say this because I've lost you. It is because I didn't put commitment in our relationship and now I want to commit myself in the relationship with you because I realized all I want is you. In fact all I wanted is you, but I gave you up and I disappoint you. I used to be putting myself in the center but because of my love to you I'm not afraid to let people know the mistake I've made and how much I've disappoint you.

Everyday I pray to God and say that I really made a mistake and I'm very regret, but I really love you so much and please give me another chance for me to love you and for you to love me, and I am willing to scarifies anything, seriously anything just to have you back. But no matter how hard I pray it doesn't seems to make any difference. All I can do now is live my life and just give myself HOPE to HOPE.

I love you and I will always do. Please come back to me Lou Po Zai........